The Clay

I like being a potter.  I mean that I get a great deal of fulfillment from taking a piece of clay and making it into something that is useful and beautiful.  I feel both connected to my own humanity and to God through the process.  

I'm not sure that I always like being the clay and being worked and trusting God.  I know that that is not the right response but it is the true response.  I want to tell the Potter (God) what I want Him to do with me rather than trusting Him to make what he wants me to become.  I just like being in control way more than I want everyone to know.  In essence I am a stiff piece of clay that is not cooperating with the desire of the Potter.  

My family and I have been reading a book called So You Don't Want To Go To Church Anymore.  It is an amazing book and it sound much like our story.  I have been in the process of being deprogramed and learning all over again what it means to both be loved by the Father and to walk in dependance upon His love for me.  I have been guilty of making my own way and wrapping it in religious garments.  

My goal is to be responsive clay.